We all mess up. Sometimes we mess up big time. Some days, we feel like we’re doing nothing right. Mistake after mistake; slip up after slip up- we may feel like we’re on a slippery path just heading downwards. From maybe missing Fajr, to letting our tongue slip when talking to our parents, or backbiting or hurting someone- or maybe doing all of this in one day- we start to feel like man “I just suck, I can’t do anything right” and it’s very easy to start to despair. The weights of our sins start to become really heavy on us, and we continue to sink in this despair and disappointment which can actually lead us away from Allah. We start to think, how could Allah forgive me? But Allah says and commands all of us:
“Say, “O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.” [39:53]
Allah commands us not to despair from His mercy. Ustadh Nouman in his tafseer of Surah Zumar paints this situation as if there’s a scale. On one side of the scale are a person’s deeds and on the other side of the scale is Allah’s mercy. Which one would outweigh the other? Of course, Allah mercy’s is greater than any bad deed we could every commit because there is no limit to Allah, Allah is greater and above everything and His mercy is always greater than our sins. Once we fall into despair, we sink deeper and deeper. But as Muslims, we are a people of hope, we are commanded to not despair. Fall down? Get back up, over and over again.
One thing to note about this ayah is that it ends by Allah saying that he is extremely forgiving, always merciful. Allah doesn’t say that he is ALWAYS forgiving because then people would do whatever they want without a care, thinking that Allah will forgive them anyways. But rather Allah says, that he is extremely forgiving and ALWAYS merciful and through this endless mercy, the doors for forgiveness are always open.
And one amazing thing that always gets me is you know how when you love someone, you don’t want to ever hurt them or disappoint them. But we are all human, so sometimes we mess up even in our relationships with others. But when a relationship goes through many mistakes, it takes a toll. You hurt someone one, twice, three times- that relationship won’t ever be the same again, that person won’t really see you the same. But it’s so amazing because with Allah it’s not like that. We sin all the time, we make mistakes all the time but even then, Allah says that He forgives all sins if we turn to Him sincerely. May Allah make us people are constantly, sincerely turning back to Him inshAllah.
"O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you."-Hadith Qudsi